I'm back diaryland. I have been writing in my Deadjournal. The thing is I really don't understand diarylands html then I could with Deadjournal and Livejournal.
Anyways I went through alot of chaos. I can GLADLY say that I'm over Chris. It's really great. I'm sort of taking an interest on one of my long time friends but that's a whole other story.
Love can be very hurtful. I can relate to the hurtful side though. I've lead myself to self harm in the past years. And sometimes I still think about doing it. I admite that it's stupid but it was the only thing to make the emotional pain go away, for a little while. Yet on the other side, I STRIVE to finally be loved. I don't want to be fucked around with. I'm tired of guys saying "I love you" and dumping you a week later. Psh, love. They probably think love is thinking about sex with you all night. I hate it. I just want to go with someone who can prove to me that he understands girls have feelings and never under-estimates the whole statement "I love you" because girls are over-dramatic. Yes, they always think it's a fairy-tale love. Where they always have a good ending.
Anyways, I just got this nice tan. I feel very mexican. I've had some of my good friends even ask me if I was Mexican or Puerto Rican. DAMN I WISH!!! The guys there are so hot!!! Yeah, teenage girl moment.
The Butterfly Effect was great. Rent it.
Much Love,
Kay