I just realized that I used to think that being with a guy, makes me happy. And being single, makes me sad. I know that I'd rather be with someone who can hold me and et cetera, then to be alone. But that shouldn't keep me from being happy. I don't need a guy to be happy. I won't have to worry about if he's cheating on me, if I'm spending enough time with him, if we need space, if and when we fight.. I can just be laid back. I should think of being single as well, a vacation.
Alot of my friends think the way I used to. That they need to be with someone in order to be happy. I wish I could get through to one of my best friends. She likes this guy alot and everytime he does something wrong, she gets really sad.. depressed. Well, I don't think she should feel that way. I can't tell her to stop cutting because of guys because they aren't worth it. I just hope she finds out herself. Scars will always show.. there goes your bathing suit. When you are getting married, and at your wedding, you'll have discusting scars from a guy you used to like a while back.
I hate it that some people have to show pictures of how deep they cut or where the cut. I think cutting should be personal. Feelings are personal, so should cutting. Every now and then I'll read through diaries and find a picture of what the person did last night.. how and where they cut. I hate it. I don't care if you write about it, but showing it? It just seems like someone needs attention. Honestly. No offense to those who show pictures of themselves over the internet, just most people I know who take pictures of scars, they want attention.
I've been happier since I've gotten over Chris. Alot happier. This is gonna sound wierd but my heart hurts.. owwwwwwwww!!!!! I gotta go.
Much Love,
Kay