I'm happy that I'm finally, truely over Chris. So Gladly to say I'll be writing here, more often. I feel like I'm leaving footprints in the sand anymore. That I've touched many peoples hearts.
Although it's odd. Everyone is turning into a non-virgin. I don't think they should have had sex so early in life. I've heard they learn to regret it. I really can't stand it anymore. How do you know that giving him all of you, makes him to automatically love you. He can give you up with simple words. That you may fall into depression about.
Sometimes I find myself staring at the stars. I think about how many there are out there. Just like stars, I feel like I'm one in a million.. billion.. trillion. You get what I mean? So if I was on the star staring at people of earth, I'd think they are one of a trillion. I'd never have my eye on just one. Stars are confusing.
School has been fine. I've been having simple crushes on the people I thought I'd never like. I'd rather not say, for some reason, I'd like it to be personal. I don't feel like writing another love story. Haha.
I've been hanging out with Sammi and Tom alot anymore. I feel like I can vent to Sammi and Tom can always make us laugh. He's a good person. I was over Sammi's all weekend. I found myself in a daze. I thought about how happy I was being friends with her and Tom. But when I got home. I just felt really bad. Started having those thoughts. The ones you get when you attempt suicide.
Bi-polar is the worst thing I have. If I'm happy, then I want to be just happy. If I'm meant to be sad, then leave me to be just sad. I don't want to feel 20 feelings in one minute. It's sickening. Sometimes it's hard for me to figure out who is my true friend. Everything just seems to be hard on me.
Much Love,
Kay